Friday, 30 April 2010


I did something crazy today and didn't get out of bed until 12:30! After a busy week, two birthdays, a hockey pub night, a picnic by the lake and a going away dinner, I decided that today I was going to dedicate it to some cleaning and pampering. I vacuumed the house and cleaned up the kitchen. Then I took a shower and washed my hair, good bye straight locks!  I've decided that as long as I have a job, I will treat myself to a blowout every month or so since I go to this small new place where they've agreed to wash and straighten for just 20 dollars, and I can't complain because it costs the same if I go get it done at the Hairdressers School, but they don't use conditioner, it's a different person each time and my hair didn't turn out as bright and shiny as when Ruth does it.

To be honest, I haven't quite decided what this blog is for, I just like expressing myself with words and photographs. Today I also wanted to do something new and review some products I have. I don't wear a lot of makeup but I love owning it, as well as perfume and jewelry. I feel that since I turned twenty, I've been spending more time on the details, which I used to find superficial, but now I'm just having fun with it. And if I don't do it now, I'll just regret it later on...So here are just four things for now:

1. The first product is C.O. Bigelow's Rose Salve. It's been awhile since I've wanted this product, I don't remember where I saw it but when I was twelve or thirteen or so, my aunt gave me a face product made from roses, it was probably the first skin/beauty product I ever had and since then I've loved a light smell of roses, not too overpowering though, so it doesn't smell like and old lady's perfume. I use it on my lips and cuticles as well as a little on the sides of my nose and I love it. The lack of instructions on it makes me wonder if it's a scam of sorts, but I'm more than satisfied with the way it softens and the slight smell it leaves behind.

2. This one was a gift, I mentioned I was interested in Benefit's BeneTint because it was doubly used for lips and cheeks, so my friend got me Stila Cherry Crush Lip & Cheek Stain. It comes like a brush on lip gloss  where you click the end to let the product out. At first I was excited and it smelled really good, like cherry candy but when I tried applying it to my cheeks, I found it hard to do with the brush and then hard to blend with my fingers. Also, the product didn't come out as soon as you twisted it but rather much later. The trick to this might be to use it on your lips first, as to get the product evened through the brush, and then on your cheeks, blending with one hand just as you apply it with the other. However, each time I've tried BeneTint at a beauty counter or wherever, I've been able to blend it in well even once I've put the brush back into the bottle and sealed it. This might be useful for someone on the run, but considering I never really wear any lip colour, this isn't for me.

3. However, my heart goes to this little guy, Bonne Bell Bubble Gum Lip Smacker. I think I've had this tube so long that it would make most makeup connoisseurs run away, but what can you do...There's something 'medicated' about the Chapstick flavours and a fruity or sugary flavour would seem too sweet. So I'm loyal to this tube until I run out.

4. Lastly is Benefit's Bad gal Lash Mascara. I am inlove with all of Benefit's products and wish I could get my hand on more. I was pretty excited to get this one because I needed a new mascara and I'd read good reviews. It's simple design and huge angled brush is perfect and it does make my lashes big and bad, however I have one complaint. When you get home after having a big bad gal night, and you remember your good girl ways and remove your makeup before you go to runs...and it runs ALOT, it runs so much that even though you feel like you've washed your face, you wake up with racoon eyes anyways, which has never happened to me with any other mascara. I don't think it says anything about being waterproof, which is not an issue for me, but it makes me wonder what would happen if I got caught in the rain with my bad gal lashes on. Nonetheless, I will probably keep using it when I can until it runs out because it does work.

So these are four products, and this was kind of interesting, so I might do this again. Hope you have a lovely weekend! xx

Wednesday, 28 April 2010


Fear is an emotional bomb that devours your body, mind and spirit.

So what am I so scared of?

Tuesday, 27 April 2010


Alone I wander a thousand miles and I ask my way from the white clouds. -Tibetan Buddhist Proverb

Monday, 26 April 2010

Saturday, 24 April 2010


For my birthday, I had my first ever Mani & Pedi at MNails on the Danforth and it was one of the best, fun, relaxing and girly things I've ever done and I got to do it with two of my bestest girlfriends! 
Look at how much attention I'm getting!! Doted hand and foot!
In real light, the colour is much more of a coral pink (Hot & Spicy by O.P.I.) and I got a clean french pink (I've got a Tempura) on my hands, but I got the toe designs done for free when she heard it was my birthday!! I'm definitely coming back, the owner even gave me a hug and a fortune cookie before I left!

XX Birthday

Good Morning World, I'm twenty!

Friday, 23 April 2010

I was Nineteen

This is my last day being nineteen and so far it's been fabelhaft! I finished first year and the dreaded German exam! Did some quick shopping with Gareth and will meet up with people throughout the rest of the day and a well deserved pint ce soir :)

My mom said she can't believe that twenty years ago I was in her womb. She told me that as they were stitching up her cesarean  they put me in her arms and when she called out my name, I looked up and smiled! How sweet is that??

I hope you all have a sunny beautiful day wherever you are in the world...xx

Thursday, 22 April 2010


This is basically where I live...
Here I am again, NOT studying, lurking on facebook and downloading music from my fav new artists and such and then some. I got my hair straightened today, I look so different...I'm looking forward to tomorrow LAST EXAM being over with, Adios German!, and then doing some shopping and then hanging out with some friends and then and then and's my birthday :)
HOW GIRLY DOES THAT SOUND? I love it. I haven't been girly in so freaking long and I don't care. I want to surround myself with nothing but good things and I've been deeply inspired by an author or two, that I will share bits on here later on as I feel that things are going to be okay. And I'm okay with okay right now.

How lame is it that I'm so desperate to procrastinate that I'm itching to completely clean my bathroom from top to bottom?? And you know what's worst? since there is no time to do it tomorrow (slash not ruin my luscious locks), and obviously not on my birthday because who cleans their bathroom on their birthday, right? and then not the day after because it's my friends birthday and who wants the first thing they do once they're twenty to be bathroom cleaning, right? So this means I won't be able to (able to?) until Monday! I think there's something wrong with me...(clearly)

Wanted to plan an impromptu trip to Florida but Tallahasee is sooo much more expensive than Jacksonville, unless there's like a bus or it's cool to hitchhike, I don't think I can visit my friend. Hopefully in the near post-summer future.

I'm happy for the new followers though saddened that they are invisible! Welcome to my blog ghostwriters! Don't mind me...xx

Wednesday, 21 April 2010


A couple days ago, they told me there was a chance that I had a certain type of cancer.
They apparently determined this because of some supposed ''numbers'' being a certain way on some month old blood tests and some strange results in my abdomen ultrasound. I have no idea.
My first thoughts? nothing. blank.
Seconds? still blank...windowpaintingdeskglasseshandbraceletshoefloorfloor....
Third, okay, brother beat cancer, why can't I?
Fourth, why is this happening to me? why does this stuff only happen to me??
and then Fifth, we have to live each day to the fullest and all that, right? RIGHT?

Today I learnt the results were negative and it was something else, an infection last month, that made these supposed ''numbers'' supposedly look like something they were not. Though for some reason my liver has got a mind of it's own...though nothing serious as of yet.

I can't say that I'm proud of the way I treated myself during these days, if anything I'm almost ashamed. What if the results had been positive?  What if I did have a diminished chance of making it?

That's it, fresh start. Life cannot be wasted in tears. It's back to the surface now, my life is far far far from over.

Sunday, 18 April 2010

Past Tense

As if things couldn't get any worse, my netbook broke in THE most ironic fashion. The little heart decal I had placed on it somehow cracked the screen after months and months of it being there, ironically within the same HOUR that my OWN heart shattered quite a great deal more than it had already been shattered due to some devastating event that I am not evil enough to share with you.
Also ironic, I stumbled across my old blog and found myself giving advice that I was really needing, thanks 2004 self!

In any case, my brother is helping me out with that on Tuesday by getting me an early birthday present and using my old netbook as an external hardrive, so dear Tuesday self remember the following things:

  • Hometown Glory by Adele
  • Shine 2009 - Higher
  • Start studying German, meet up with Gareth.
  • Get your hair done on Thursday
  • Confirm restaurant + Silver tips + Old Nick
  • shop for Ashley's gift and possible dress
Fourth exam tomorrow, wish me luck! I'm actually kind of feeling okay about this one...xx

Friday, 16 April 2010




Tell me something happy? 

 You are a beautiful, intelligent, brave, well-traveled, 
well-read woman who will go on from this point 
to live a full,
 meaningful life.

Thank you...

Thursday, 15 April 2010

Set me Free

How can we still be friends when seeing you only breaks my heart again?

Dear life...

please stop crumbling?

Wednesday, 14 April 2010

Mal du Siecle

Here I am, studying for another exam and procrastination has taken over. I've still got a bunch of Guy de Maupassant and Zola to finish and all my notes to review. I'll be ok. However I must say that my procrastination has led me to be really efficient and organized. I'm itching to move my bed over and I'll probably get on that  tomorrow afternoon and get the amazing prints Paul bought me framed so I can hang them up. I've also decided to continue my perfume bottle collection. But now! I've started Glee and so far I love it, no wonder everyone loves it.  After this episode, I PROMISE I'll go back to studying! xx

Dear Sociology 101...

...GTFO. :]

Tuesday, 13 April 2010

Book Hitting

I'll be studying all day and tomorrow as well, be good while I'm away...don't do anything I would do...xx

Monday, 12 April 2010


Hello again.
It's been a difficult year and too much has happened. I got back from the hospital yesterday and was suddenly very efficient and motivated, but studying, on the other harder than anything so far...I've got a Sociology exam followed by a French Culture exam, back to back. Thanks.
In any case...first of all, I put up these blinds! ALL BY MYSELF! Look at how efficient I am!! haha before and then after, I told you I could make a good wife someday ;) but I've really got to work on my desk area, it's organized but so cluttered! 
One thing led to another and now I'm considering rearranging my entire room, but sadly my itchy hands will have to wait until exams are over. Then I organized my closet and made a pile of things for charity, and here's photos of Mima being helpful...
I really want to hit up Value Village soon because every time I get some great finds. Last time I went I got white jeans, a blue dress, white ballerina flats and a yellow strapless top, I can't wait to wear them this summer. I have a hard time throwing things out, especially clothes because I always convince myself that I'll wear them at some point and then when I finally do manage to give something away, it's like I suddenly need it and regret it a month later. I'm slowly putting things aside for my summer, it's really going to be a memorable one. I should do some more planning soon. I've only bought my main ticket, I need to look into the others, perhaps through Ryan Air, as well as 2 festivals and some other trips, and also on Ticketmaster for any possible comedy shows, because I'm inlove with british comedy.

Mima immediately located a new spot on top of my freshly folded sheets. I had to put down some plastic until I come up with a better idea, or else she'd get my sheets covered in hair, and yes, those are little mermaid sheets at the bottome there... I'm closer to finding the place for my birthday dinner, I'll need to go down there soon to check out the area. My really great friend Ashley took me shopping to cheer me up and make me feel normal again. She bought me two birthday presents and I've bought her one, since her birthday is the day after mine, but I know some other things I'll get her.
Check out these insane heels, I love them!! Exactly what I was missing haha I've decided to put more fashion things up here, I feel like it will motivate me to go through my clothes more as well as...what the hell...I'll do what I want! I've seen alot of blogs lately that have really inspired me.

I feel like it's going to be a brand new start in more ways than one.

Friday, 9 April 2010

Seeing Red

Now the drugs don't work / They just make you worse / But I know I'll see your face again


I can't remember ever having been so angry.
I'm going back to bed.

Thursday, 8 April 2010

Waffly Mamasita

For my mum's birthday, I brought her breakfast in bed, then we went to Le Commencal, an buffet with an amazing vegetarian/vegan/etc. buffet where they weigh your plate as the price. I'm considering taking Paul there when he comes in May. For my birthday I was planning on Mani/Pedis then Dinner, then a Pub. I hope it works out.

Inspired by helping out the woman I work for with sorting out and labeling boxes and boxes of baby clothes, I did a CRAZY run through of my closet and put tags up and everything and made a whole basket of potential goodbyes.  Actually spending a little bit more time on my outfits (which sounds so superficial, I know) but it brightens my life just enough and I really need all the brightening I can get. 

 Wanted to buy a navy blue dress because I saw it on 90210 and because I want to wear more dresses but then I found this long tshirt dress that belonged to my mom with a Cleopatra-like bead embroidered neck, it seems like this month, the things I'm wishing for are coming true or are right under my nose...if only that were true about other things in my life. 

Also I went to see my Nonna who is back from the hospital and then I was invited by my friend Shannon to see
 "I'm So Close" , it was amazing, and so relevant to my life that I began to cry. I can't even describe it...

First exam is in 2 hours, wish me luck! xx

Wednesday, 7 April 2010


I need an answer.

Tuesday, 6 April 2010

Birthday Wishlist 2010

Dearest Universe, here is my birthday wishlist....

  • more laughter
  • more good memories
  • plane tickets
  • travel guides
  • a bottle of febreeze
  • exciting experiences
  • a really expensive haircut
  • iPod gel case
  • bike chain, bike parts
  • Ikea duvet covers
  • gifts from Sephora
  • a necklace with my name on it
  • Moroccan Hair Oil
  • a magazine subscription
  • clothes, jewelry, perfume, whatever.
  • gift cards for clothes, shoes...
  • a patient friend who will help me sort my closet/life
  • dinner with you!
  • Paul

Monday, 5 April 2010

I'm Evil

...or so I've been told...

Sunday, 4 April 2010

Counting Back To 1

Currently inlove with Bree Sharp:

Happy Easter

cuteness overload.

Friday, 2 April 2010

Where in the World...

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