Golden

xx

Masquerade!

My friend Christine Wilson took these for her Photography work, here is her Flickr and here are some of my favs :]

M&P

For my birthday, I had my first ever Mani & Pedi at MNails on the Danforth and it was one of the best, fun, relaxing and girly things I've ever done and I got to do it with two of my bestest girlfriends! 

Look at how much attention I'm getting!! Doted hand and foot!

In real light, the colour is much more of a coral pink (Hot & Spicy by O.P.I.) and I got a clean french pink (I've got a Tempura) on my hands, but I got the toe designs done for free when she heard it was my birthday!! I'm definitely coming back, the owner even gave me a hug and a fortune cookie before I left!

XX

Resurfacing

A couple days ago, they told me there was a chance that I had a certain type of cancer.

They apparently determined this because of some supposed ''numbers'' being a certain way on some month old blood tests and some strange results in my abdomen ultrasound. I have no idea.
My first thoughts? nothing. blank.
Seconds? still blank...windowpaintingdeskglasseshandbraceletshoefloorfloor....
Third, okay, well...my brother beat cancer, why can't I?
Fourth, why is this happening to me? why does this stuff only happen to me??
and then Fifth, we have to live each day to the fullest and all that, right? RIGHT?

Today I learnt the results were negative and it was something else, an infection last month, that made these supposed ''numbers'' supposedly look like something they were not. Though for some reason my liver has got a mind of it's own...though nothing serious as of yet.

I can't say that I'm proud of the way I treated myself during these days, if anything I'm almost ashamed. What if the results had been positive?  What if I did have a diminished chance of making it?

That's it, fresh start. Life cannot be wasted in tears. It's back to the surface now, my life is far far far from over.

Try this on for size...

Blu

A couple things about me that have changed since last year, I'm stronger in some ways and not so much weaker in others but...I want to spend more time on them. I have lost a lot of weight and stopped dying my hair somewhat, and I'm not so afraid of making mistakes anymore, (except for handing in essays on time). I would however like to spend more time on myself. Actually make my creative ideas and ambitious thoughts happen! As well as the things a soon to be twenty year old should do...
Also, my birthday was depressing last year and I won't let that happen again, and I'm going to get my nails did with some girls! :]

Also, I've decided to start speaking like Ke$ha, because I love hurr, though in an interview, the way she spoke of music and her love for it was very different from what her songs are in reality...

xx

Liesborn 2008

How I survived NYC...

Must be funny

See what I did there? Yes...a new layout. Let's try you on for size...I've realized a few things this month and I feel like I'm getting closer to the things I want and want to be. Funny how the moment you actually dedicate yourself to consciously save money, all these random fees and fines and expensive drinks pop up. Though I consider myself rather lucky because I usually find at least a penny each day and have learnt how to save. When my jar is full I'll cash it in and see how much I've got. Luckily I've got some income coming in for the next weeks, though I'm not a big spender anyways. I'll be saving up for summer! We'll see how it goes... xx

Fatticus Rex

New Koi.

Let's do this, I said I would, didn't I? :)

New Year, New Flavia. Well almost, there's still quite a few things to tweak. Dyed my hair a bit too dark, but looks great with new hat from Paul, who came for what felt like a blissful eternity that was heaven. Now he's back at uni and I'm already itching to see him again in a few weeks. Trying to purchase ticket as we speak but can't find my ISIC card, so I'll need to call them in the morning.

sigh.

Lots to do still in the apartment and they are slowly falling into place, but much too slowly to my liking. Paul helped me a lot, putting up a shelf and a blind, we had a fun time at places like Canadian Tire and Pier 1, is it too soon to start dreaming? I have a few things I'm keeping aside for my 'future' abode. Polka dot plates, iron owls...

We've made summer plans and I'm so excited I might just burst, but I don't want to reveal too much. The superstitious side of me feels that I should wait because some envious person out there could see my happyness and send me a curse of sorts...do you ever think about something like that? Silly perhaps. In any case, planning must commence immediately for the best deals. However, finding a job would be ideal right now. Paul helped me buy a printer, so I can [finally] print out my CV, which could use an update actually, and go get a job! Money Money Mooooneeey! Moooney!!

Uni has begun again and now I'll have class everyday but I don't mind, it'll get me moving left and right and give me a reason to shower and brush my hair. I can still have my darling Duvet Tuesdays and Thursdays (and now Mondays too!) But they must end by 5pm the latest :) Italian, German, French, English and Sociology. Got an A- in Biotechnology, which makes me super happy. There was this other science course I was really interested in, but so far I really like my French course so I'm undecided what to do, but I think I'm going to leave everything as it is right now. I'm only half a credit behind which shouldn't be a problem. Imagine a marine biology half credit in Australia! Okay okay sorry, got out of hand there...I'll probably go to somewhere in Europe. Probably next year, if not third year.

Spent a burst of energy cleaning my bathroom and closet, was pleasantly interrupted by Paul from a Casino? in Minneapolis? winning at Slots? I love you. You're buying me dinner, yeah? :D

xx

• Find ISIC card!!! And Health Card.
• Make Bed.
• Make a proper Desk.
• Make pile of clothes for 'myexcloset.ca'.
• Go to Library.
• Read Victor Hugo.
• Read Modern and Normal.
• Empty more boxes.
• Check out flights.
• Check out Gym/Pool.
• Call Travel Cuts.
• Call Manpower, Update Resume, Job Search.

Said the Lion

The only time,
That my heart,
Will ever shatter and fall apart,
Is the day,
That we part -

In death,
Through a life endured -
In a day,
Never cured -
In hopes and cries forevermore
To see your face,
And feel your paw,
Held in place,
Upon my cheek,
When I was weak -

To hear the mighty wonderful roar,
Forever missed,
Forever raw,
Of the one,
I adore
Forevermore